Y'ALL (sort of long)

Y'all, let me just start by telling you that I am so excited about life. :)

Now, let me tell you about things since Sunday. (first, let me get this new Justin Bieber song off the radio, what happened to him?! I use to be a belieber, but not anymore.)

OKAY SO, On Sunday my Brother Adam and I got baptized! We were baptized when we were younger (something like 20 years ago) together. So I think it's only fitting that we did it all these years later at the same time again :) Jesus is funny like that :)

So, we went to our Young Adults thing we go to on Tues nights and they kept mentioning that their church was doing a "Celebrate Baptism" thing Sunday. So we started talking about it and found out that it had been on both of our minds. It scared us a little though because we don't go to that church on Sundays and we only know a very  few people. So from Wed morning to Sat evening, the thought was in my head to back out, I didn't feel super strongly about doing it, but we had already committed the two of us doing it (along with like 25+ other people). Adam made a good point to me saying "I can't imagine a situation where you would regret doing it" So I went through with it. And can I just tell you

I HAVE NEVER FELT SO FREE, SO HAPPY, AND SO LOOKED AFTER/ LOVED IN MY WHOLE LIFE.

whew! So I am going to go ahead and say positively, it was a wise choice :)

Furthermore, since May I have been praying and praying and waiting and listening and praying for a promise, for an answer, for any little bit of hope for my current circumstances, and Monday morning, I was cleaning (I clean a dance studio right now for a very little bit of income) and God's voice and answer just came down to me like something out of a movie. Like in all those silly portrayals where like the sky opens up and a huge booming voice comes down? OK so it wasn't quite like that, but it sure felt like it! I was standing there cleaning some windows, and He was just like "OKAY, This is happening. Just give me a little more time to make it perfect." And I just started BAWLING. I cry a lot when I'm there, haha. If they ever watched the tapes they would think "What is wrong with her?!" But I take that time alone to just talk with God, to tell him my fears, my hopes, my desires. And I just talk with him like he's in the room with me...because he is. (As I'm writing this out, I can totally see how some people think that is just crazy talk). But REALLY, I have been struggling so much, and I took the step to get baptized as a way of saying "OK God, I am trusting you with my wreck of a life right now. I am believing in your INCREDIBLE power, and the baptism of your holy spirit." So while I am learning what it means to FULLY rely on God, I have never doubted his ability, his promises, or his want to take care of his children.

So, as I sit here in this terribly messy room, I look around at all this Stuff (it's just stuff in the end, can't take it with you) and I am SO thankful, so grateful, and so so blessed that when everything else in my life falls apart, and I am learning to rebuild from the ground up, that my Lord is standing there holding my hand, rummaging through the wreckage, and handing me the right bricks to build back up the way he intended us to. His ways are so much bigger than ours, and if He wants it to happen, we can run as far away as we think will help, but even in the midst of the worst sin, God is there, watching, waiting, and gently calling our name to come open the door and invite him in. And He will wait at that door as long as we are living. He will never give up on any of us. HE NEVER LEAVES US. EVER. HOW COOL IS THAT?!

Believing that the Bible is literally the spoken word of God, these verses mean everything to me right now:
Proverbs 21:30 "There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the Lord."
Isaiah 45:5 (this is my prayer for some people) "I am the Lord, and there is no other; apart from me there is no God. I will strengthen you, though you have not acknowledged me." HOW COOL!!!
2 Corinthians 3:17 "Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom!"
2 Corinthians 4:16 "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day."
Exodus 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you, you need only be still"
Psalm 56:5 "we can't always see where the road leads, but God promises there's something better up ahead, we just have to trust him."
Those are just a few,  I will try to post a few every time I post. Because if you don't know, that there bible holding up your other books, coffee tables, buried under junk, it has the answers to big time life questions in it. It can help you figure out pretty much any answer you need. Except for why the platypus has a duck bill with teeth. Otherwise, it's a pretty handy book, and it holds great power in it's words.

I will leave you with my favorite most empowering verse that I am crazy about right now Psalm 46:5

"God is within her, she will not fail."

So watch out all my adversaries! I just read that God will take you down, because He protects those who love him! I have not lost the war or the battle yet, and with God on my side, I WILL NOT FAIL.

Praise the Lord for his greatness, mercy and love! Nothing is more amazing to me than the fact that He is continuously providing for me in my time of need. AMEN! YOU Go, GOD! ;)


p.s. I love my husband :) Pray for him please, he has 2 months left in this semester for school (2 more semesters after this) and he has a huge workload, never gets to sleep, and he's just having a hard time. It would be greatly appreciated :)

Jesus has interesting ways

So, this Sunday, at 10, I am getting baptized. It will be the second time, but the first time I was maybe 4?5? So it will be the first in my adult life. And it seems like the right thing to do leading into this season of my life. My brother is too. Which is fun because we were baptized together all those years ago :) so anyways, its at Erie First 8150 Oliver rd, Erie, PA this Sunday :-) Come to church and celebrate with us :)

Praise Him in the storm

Who do you thank when something really awesome is happening or happens in your life?
For the longest time I just said "thank you" out loud, to no one in particular. Maybe it was the universe, or my husband or myself. Sometimes, but only sometimes, was it a genuine "thank you" to God. I am learning that when these awesome things happen, it's not karma, or the universe, or even myself, but it is God answering the prayers I've forgotten I prayed, showing me that He really is looking at me saying "my beautiful daughter, you are such a wonderful creation. I want to give you all the desires of your heart, if only you will trust in me."

Today I learned to trust in Him.

I have been praying for a certain thing to happen. And it has happened at least once a week for the last 3 months. And every week I ask for it again. Now let me tell you, this thing would definitely not happen if God did not have his mighty, powerful, loving hand over my life right now. So alas, I praise Him and have finally learned to trust in His ways and His timing.
Tonight on my ride home from seeing the Tibetan Monks perform (that was so cool!) I was thanking God for said thing that happened, and He spoke more loud and more clear than I have heard from him in so so long; And He said to me "Do you trust me, now?" I felt like doubting Thomas. God has been providing and changing things and moving the right mountains at the right time and all I've been doing is asking for more. More signs, more promises, more grace, patience, love and faith. All of which He's given me. But in time of crisis, how often do we really stop to Praise Him in the storm?

I have no job, no more school, I have no idea how to cook anything worth while, I am learning to do the grocery shopping, cooking and cleaning, pay bills, take the car to the shop, etc....and I love it! While the change in my life is hard to deal with, I am learning and growing so much. I am going to be such an awesome wife and mother! Do you know why? Because I am learning to Praise God in the storm, and He will honor my faithfulness to Him in such an awesome unfathomable way. AND I AM SO EXCITED FOR HIS PROMISES TO ABOUND!

So with that said, my week has been long and tiring. But today was so good. Dinner (mexican, yum!) with my wonderful, handsome husband, Tibetan Monk performance, and pumpkin betty dessert. I am seeing that every single day is weaved together by God Himself with such a huge plan, and so full of love for us, His children. He is always good, always right, and always on time.

Be blessed. <3

life

It's been a long day. So here's a good article, and a verse to always remember.

How to pray when you're depressed

New beginnings

I don't normally blog, but I have this one here, so I thought I might start to write some things out. We'll see.

First I want to write this: This blog is going to have a lot and I mean A LOT about Jesus being my Savior and Lord and how I believe in him to carry me through this season of my life.
2. This blog probably won't have much detail about this season of my life, except that I believe in God's restoration, His miracles, His love and I firmly believe in this verse: "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken" Ecclesiastes 4:12
3. I love my husband more than anyone else on this planet. I love God more than I love my husband. First and foremost, He never leaves me, He will never hurt me, His will is good for my life. And no matter what is happening, I can trust in Him. God and D are the two things that will most likely be talked about on here. Just so y'all know :)
4. If you don't like the things I'm listing, or that I believe, then don't follow this blog. That's pretty simple :)
5. As you read my blog, know that I am praying for anyone who reads this. I am not a good blogger by any means, but I hope from time to time you can and will find some inspiration on here. I hope that you will trust in the Lord, know He does not ordain bad things to happen, but he allows them. But He IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL.

Now that those few things are out of the way, I will write just a blurb.
I graduated college (finally) in May 2013, I currently don't have a job but I stay busy learning to be a homemaker, wife, and hopefully (in God's will and timing) a mother. Don't get me wrong, I am looking for work on the daily- but in this season, I trust God to provide. He has always provided every step of the way for D and me, and this is just another one of those times that I am trusting in Him to light the way for us.
This is a very rough season of life for both D and I. We have hit some hard ground and trying to figure out the way to rebuild on solid ground. It's a long journey, But God rebuilds. We keep busy (school, work(when we have it), D with homework, me with Aliana's Jumble shop stuff) and we try to make a date day/night at least once a week. It helps some. Sometimes it doesn't. But I believe we're getting there. God loves us and our marriage and He has huge plans for us. D has one more year of school left, so say a prayer for him and us that we can get him through with his awesome grades (yep, he's an honor student! Go D!) and that the Lord will guide us and provide an awesome job for him, and that we will let God into our lives to guide us through the storms of life, together.

My jams (yes, I said jams) right now are Katy Perry's ROAR, that song is GREAT! and B.O.B's magic. I can't stop listening to them! ha! My favorite show right now is Doctor Who. In fact, my Halloween costume is the T.A.R.D.I.S haha, I am a proud geek. I am also a super nerd, I LOVE science stuff. I love Earth Science and anything about the ocean haha.

Pretty much that's my life right now. As I feel led, I will post on here. I will try to at least twice a week, but we'll see what God has in store for my life! WINTER IS COMING is what I keep feeling like I'm hearing, which is funny to me, right? because I am not in the Game of Thrones...but somedays it sure feels like it haha.
But really, winter here in PA is coming, and they are big winters up here. And it is going to be a mood changer, but I am going to stay strong. But in saying that, I just mean I can feel the winds of change coming. I don't know what that means, I don't know God's plan, but I'm just going to fall into the wind and let Him carry me through. My hope and prayer is to put all my faith, hope and trust in God's plan, because deep down I know it is so much bigger and better than any plan I could contrive. Any plan I could dream up, His is bigger. He is good. Always.

(side note, The Fox by Ylvis just came on the radio I'm listening to, and that makes me SO HAPPY. If you meet a friendly horse, will you communicate by morse? How will you speak to that horse? HAHAHA)

So that ends my new beginnings post. Here's to a new, tough but hopeful, very adult, first time I've ever needed so much grace, faith and hope in my life, season of life. Cheers!