Y'ALL (sort of long)

Y'all, let me just start by telling you that I am so excited about life. :)

Now, let me tell you about things since Sunday. (first, let me get this new Justin Bieber song off the radio, what happened to him?! I use to be a belieber, but not anymore.)

OKAY SO, On Sunday my Brother Adam and I got baptized! We were baptized when we were younger (something like 20 years ago) together. So I think it's only fitting that we did it all these years later at the same time again :) Jesus is funny like that :)

So, we went to our Young Adults thing we go to on Tues nights and they kept mentioning that their church was doing a "Celebrate Baptism" thing Sunday. So we started talking about it and found out that it had been on both of our minds. It scared us a little though because we don't go to that church on Sundays and we only know a very  few people. So from Wed morning to Sat evening, the thought was in my head to back out, I didn't feel super strongly about doing it, but we had already committed the two of us doing it (along with like 25+ other people). Adam made a good point to me saying "I can't imagine a situation where you would regret doing it" So I went through with it. And can I just tell you

I HAVE NEVER FELT SO FREE, SO HAPPY, AND SO LOOKED AFTER/ LOVED IN MY WHOLE LIFE.

whew! So I am going to go ahead and say positively, it was a wise choice :)

Furthermore, since May I have been praying and praying and waiting and listening and praying for a promise, for an answer, for any little bit of hope for my current circumstances, and Monday morning, I was cleaning (I clean a dance studio right now for a very little bit of income) and God's voice and answer just came down to me like something out of a movie. Like in all those silly portrayals where like the sky opens up and a huge booming voice comes down? OK so it wasn't quite like that, but it sure felt like it! I was standing there cleaning some windows, and He was just like "OKAY, This is happening. Just give me a little more time to make it perfect." And I just started BAWLING. I cry a lot when I'm there, haha. If they ever watched the tapes they would think "What is wrong with her?!" But I take that time alone to just talk with God, to tell him my fears, my hopes, my desires. And I just talk with him like he's in the room with me...because he is. (As I'm writing this out, I can totally see how some people think that is just crazy talk). But REALLY, I have been struggling so much, and I took the step to get baptized as a way of saying "OK God, I am trusting you with my wreck of a life right now. I am believing in your INCREDIBLE power, and the baptism of your holy spirit." So while I am learning what it means to FULLY rely on God, I have never doubted his ability, his promises, or his want to take care of his children.

So, as I sit here in this terribly messy room, I look around at all this Stuff (it's just stuff in the end, can't take it with you) and I am SO thankful, so grateful, and so so blessed that when everything else in my life falls apart, and I am learning to rebuild from the ground up, that my Lord is standing there holding my hand, rummaging through the wreckage, and handing me the right bricks to build back up the way he intended us to. His ways are so much bigger than ours, and if He wants it to happen, we can run as far away as we think will help, but even in the midst of the worst sin, God is there, watching, waiting, and gently calling our name to come open the door and invite him in. And He will wait at that door as long as we are living. He will never give up on any of us. HE NEVER LEAVES US. EVER. HOW COOL IS THAT?!

Believing that the Bible is literally the spoken word of God, these verses mean everything to me right now:
Proverbs 21:30 "There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the Lord."
Isaiah 45:5 (this is my prayer for some people) "I am the Lord, and there is no other; apart from me there is no God. I will strengthen you, though you have not acknowledged me." HOW COOL!!!
2 Corinthians 3:17 "Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom!"
2 Corinthians 4:16 "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day."
Exodus 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you, you need only be still"
Psalm 56:5 "we can't always see where the road leads, but God promises there's something better up ahead, we just have to trust him."
Those are just a few,  I will try to post a few every time I post. Because if you don't know, that there bible holding up your other books, coffee tables, buried under junk, it has the answers to big time life questions in it. It can help you figure out pretty much any answer you need. Except for why the platypus has a duck bill with teeth. Otherwise, it's a pretty handy book, and it holds great power in it's words.

I will leave you with my favorite most empowering verse that I am crazy about right now Psalm 46:5

"God is within her, she will not fail."

So watch out all my adversaries! I just read that God will take you down, because He protects those who love him! I have not lost the war or the battle yet, and with God on my side, I WILL NOT FAIL.

Praise the Lord for his greatness, mercy and love! Nothing is more amazing to me than the fact that He is continuously providing for me in my time of need. AMEN! YOU Go, GOD! ;)


p.s. I love my husband :) Pray for him please, he has 2 months left in this semester for school (2 more semesters after this) and he has a huge workload, never gets to sleep, and he's just having a hard time. It would be greatly appreciated :)